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[Mar. 14th, 2007|11:44 am] |
ok umm really scared i just went to the dentist and saw what they are gonna do to put another tooth in my gap and oh god i actually cried. there gonna cut open my jaw so they can get to the bone. my dad paid £80 today and will another £189 next time and its like oh god.
i know i need it and all but yeah.
apart from that im gonna meet sean in a coule of weeks which i really hope doesnt mess me up. |
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| sorry its been so long |
[Mar. 7th, 2007|11:26 am] |
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well here goes i got a new job im now working at the art shop near the collage in luton only started yesterday but it went well was strange i was aloud to stand around and do nothing for ages.
apart from that, my bf Duane and i are still together and the happiest we have ever been, theres justone thing that botheres me. he loves kids and i dont think i can have any. he says he does care but iv seen him around children and well im just afraid. and then again if we do ill have to share him lol. i like cuddles i cant help it. makes me feel wanted and loved. eaher way we want to get married but its not official yet.
other than that iv just been working tho i did talk to sean last niught and was gonna meet him today tho i dont think its a good idea, i still like him and dont want it to mess things up
i think il give up modeling tho, i did it to make me happy and now i am. i got new pics up tho lol. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 7th, 2007|06:09 pm] |
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| | placebo | ] |
ok now kirks starting to drive me mad as tho hes hurt hes still gone out again and stood on the edge of a most pit were oh supris supris he got hit so ended up in hospitle again. i give up with him its over as soon as i work out how to do it
but
on the up side
today i hade a photoshoot with a guy called Mike
it just turns out he lives at my grandads old house that
we sold 3 years ago
the shoot with him was good but it was cut short as his fish tank started leaking.
eather way hes looking falward to having me back.
apparently i reminded him at one point of Any Lee so thats quite cool
i feel kinda sick now tho maybe im just tired ah well |
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| meeting mike |
[Dec. 18th, 2006|06:25 pm] |
ok on saturday i met up with mike again in london. i went straight from work and kirk (bf) was ment to come with me but wouldnt accept my money and didnt have any of his own.
when i met mike we hung out and i bought a prezzie for kirk but all the shops were closeing so we went to the goth pub and just talked but it was awsome. hes still the coolest guy ever
when i got home i called kirk and it turns out that hes broken his ribs by being jumped on by 4 chavs grr i hate them so much |
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| little update |
[Dec. 2nd, 2006|08:52 pm] |
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ok when i was with sean about 6 mounths ago i saw a guy walking around and each time i saw him my heart went wow talk to him but i couldnt.
i was in the pub with my mates and he started talking to one of my mates and i got aiden to introduce us.
we get on so well and it turns out he couldnt say hi to me eather because he was so scared.
anyway now were going out and its just wow.
i did another photoshoot as well the pics are all on my normal site
http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/angel.13_serenity/
if you would like to look
and i still really need a new job this ones driving me slowly insain |
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| my photoshoot with Tim |
[Nov. 21st, 2006|04:39 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| | satisfied | ] |
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| | none | ] |
Ok so the shoot started at 12, we met in the car park just by my house.
we then went up to the church which i had the key for and took so many pictures.
to start with i was quite nervious but i soon loosened up and we had things to play with like roses and swords.
i changed about 4 times and these included a goth school girl look, a servers outfit and several of my outfits.
we did some outside as well as inside and i cant wait to see the final result.
right now about to go to meet people in bedford and staying at Aidens tonight so yeah its been a really good day |
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| saturday 11 |
[Nov. 12th, 2006|09:42 pm] |
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| | cradle of filth | ] |
lol ok yesterday was certainly different
started of with me dumping andrew my boyfriend in the morning
wondering all day if it was the right thing to do
the coven which of corse was excelent i bought a couple of my mates who havent ever
been before and they had fun so its all good. while i was there i called andrew and
asked him if he would forgive me and be my boyfriend again. Ok he made me wait till
the morning for the answer but he said yes and it was obvious tho he was trying to
make it hard but he cant lie to me so its all great
i managed to get a lift home and went to bed at half 3 which i think is rather good.
Wes did him djing and i thought he was awsome.
ok im tired now so going to bed |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 8th, 2006|08:14 pm] |
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| | 30 seconds to mars | ] |
ok so i got man trouble again tho i have a bf but thats not what im thinking about properly at the moment.
tomorrow i have got my first proper modeling shoot down in london ok im taking a mate with me beacaues of the style of it apart from anything else but im really nervious.
i dont want to make anyone feel strange about it and that means my bf. he means to much to me to hurt him.
but great news on top of that. i have been talking to mike for years it must be by now and finally we are going to meet. im really excited just hope i dont get lost a make a fool of myself as usual lol |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 3rd, 2006|03:57 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| | excited | ] |
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| | 69 eyes | ] |
ok its been a long time since i last entered here but basically
1) the modeling is going really well i have 2 more shoots planned
and one being planned
2) i have a bf who i met from vf and we have been dating for about a week
i have a photo shoot with a guy called Adem down in London on Thursday
which i will of corse say how it goes tho im kinda nervious because of
the style however, i am bringing a mate with me so i know ill be safe
(and wont get lost)
I then have another one with Simon John Harvey in a studio which is yet
to be planned properly but he needs to wait till he has the lights for it.
My new bf is called Andrew and wow thats the first time i didnt make the
first moove lol but he lives in Durby so its a long way for me to go but
im seeing him this saturday till tuesday.
i also had a job interview today which i really hope to get as its the kinda
thing im into (crystal healing) i think it went really well but only time
will tell |
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| the coven |
[Oct. 16th, 2006|09:01 am] |
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| | home | ] |
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| | seather | ] |
omg this was awsom it always is but this time was even better than normal.
i met up with wes and phil again. wes had a mate with him who was taking photos of me and him.
i wont go into to much detail but theres someone there i have been hoping to get with since i first saw him and this time we made out :P
problem is he has got to find out what another person wants before he goes any firther with me, says he wants to put me as number one if it gets there. lol that proberly doesnt make sence but i trust him.
i went home at about 3 that night and got up the following morning at 7 so yeah im thinking im crazy but i have to go to work in a bit and im still nackered
ah well was the best night ever :) |
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| strange and break up |
[Oct. 4th, 2006|09:30 am] |
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| | home | ] |
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| |  bouncy | ] |
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| | bullet for my valentine | ] |
ok well rob and i have broke up because i couldnt change how i was but yeah its up to him, the strange thing is firstlly i has russell who is the guy i lost my v to add me to msn again and start talikn the other strange thing is that jon messaged me on myspace asking if we can talk again. i was so shocked yet happy because they both said that the didnt want to talk to me ever again. wow lol sorry im happy but yeah its amazing. |
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| my phone |
[Sep. 28th, 2006|04:27 pm] |
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omg i went to work this morning as usual on the bus and on the way home i realised i left my phone behind :O its eather at work or on the bus. grr im so pissed of. so those who have my number please dont use it till i inform you i have it back |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 26th, 2006|09:37 pm] |
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ok well i got my lip and toung piercings back :) problem is Rob really isnt happy and tho i hate to make him upset i cant not be true to myself. i thought that that was gonna be it today between me and him but its not :) its all ok he isnt happy but is trying and that is all i want from him!
my pictures have also been put onto simons website now the adress is http://www.simonjohnharvey.com/ if you would like to see his other work. |
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| i got the pics back |
[Sep. 22nd, 2006|10:20 am] |
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yay i now have the pics from sunday 17 september and there realy good
http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/angel.13_serenity/
there the ones at the bottom
wow im so happy with them and the photographer said that it was great to work with me and wow lol
i am however ill today i got toncilitas so didnt go to work it hurts :(
i also found that my hours have dropped im not working 11 till 5 anymore its 11 till 3 because they cant afford to pay me grrr ok i really am going to look for a new job now |
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| 1 mounth |
[Sep. 20th, 2006|06:24 pm] |
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| | draconian | ] |
wow that went really quickly its been one mounth since me and rob got together. :) i didnt get to see him today because i was working but he had a job interview thing and now has a job yay. cant wait till i see him on saturday and i realy hope that i get a message saying they acept me on the modeling thing for mon and tues but ill find that out tomoz. |
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| meeting the photographer |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|08:50 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| | as i lay dying | ] |
well me and rob went to oxford and met up with simon who is an award winning photographer we talked and had a drink then went to take some referance shots it went really well and was so fun. i cant wait to do the actual shots he says that i am most like the lead caracter he has found so far :P
the reference shot he did was fun basically i just walked around being me while he took pics hes shown me a few and they look awsom.
things between me and rob seem better hes happy with me being me and that all i need. |
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| meeting kaja |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|09:04 pm] |
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| | touched | ] |
| [ | music |
| | placebo | ] |
ok well today i had work on my own as it has been for the last week but after i went to the pub to meet kaja and some other new girl that was good but as i was about to leave sam (mate of seans) came to see me we havent seen eachother in ages and it turns out he likes me and i kinda do him tho i dont know him well enough yet. seeing kaja was awsom im so happy that shes happy now that shes with laurance, i think shes in love she said she might be if she believed in love at first sight. tho the whole night all i could think about was sean and i even nearly ended up in tears over a simple thought ah i dont know how to get over him especially as i have been told that he likes me but ill ask him if theres ever a chance if he says no ill be ok. ah rob seems really down today hes being kinda cold tho not at the same time. mm but all in all its been a awsom night |
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| coven |
[Sep. 14th, 2006|09:24 am] |
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ok i met up with rob and we went to the coven its only the second time i have ever been there but it was so good. ok to start it was quiet but i hoped to meet some new people which i did wes phil and nathen are the main guys i guess i talk to all of them and they seem like really nice people so its all good. i came home drunk tho so much for never getting drunk again lol |
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| rob |
[Sep. 12th, 2006|08:51 am] |
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| | lostphrophets | ] |
ok ive been talking to rob online for a while and now i have met him and we are dating. the only thing that im not happy about is how he has made me take out my piercings but yeah he loves me and so is worth all i can give him.
i was talking to sean again today and i have found out that he still likes me a lot :) he will be coming down to see me in Luton when he has enough money but he said that he likes his current gf more because she lives 30 mins away rather than me who is 4 hours. i still love him but we will see a lot of people have said i can do better but thats what everyone says isnt it |
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| sean |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|09:02 am] |
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| | crushed | ] |
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| | children of bodom | ] |
i met a guy form the net called sean and we dated and moved in together, we mooved to bedford where we both had a job but he would go out without me constantly and always ask for money. i do love him tho and knowing that he was going to ask me to marry him doesnt make it any easier. it was my fult tho i cheeted on him because i heard that he was me but i have learnt from it was an expencive lesson tho |
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